Root Separation From God Event
This is an event that most likely happened to you as a child. You had one or both of your parents betray your trust, and at that time they were your God models. Somewhere you processed an event as a though you could no longer trust one or both of them. Try and find one or both events, which also may trigger further events. Usually when you ponder this event/s they will connect you to other events and behaviors where you will see clearly where you separated. Take about 30 minutes and see what comes up in your mind.
While we are in deep meditation, we discover that the single cause of all our suffering is the subconscious belief that God has abandoned us. We refer to this belief as the “Original Wound.”
Our parents, teachers, brothers, sisters, friends, lovers, employers, governments and institutions, as well as our relationships with money, education and with the health and condition of our physical bodies. All of these present us with opportunities to feel disgraced, humiliated, alienated and abandoned at various times. Especially when our search for love friendship and belongingness is shut down.
What most of us never realize is that these situations are triggering a tremendous subconscious charge of anger and resentment at God and a root separation from God. The conscious mind has concluded that God is all-knowing and all loving. The subconscious mind feels cut off, depressed and isolated in despair.
Diseases of addiction to food, sex shopping, television, the Internet, coffee, alcohol, drugs, victimhood, blame, rage and all other forms of materialism are our ways of seeking “instant gratification” for the part of ourselves that feels abandoned. However, it is an established spiritual fact that all such distractions must eventually collapse under their own weight, leading once more to the search for god.